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I am the despondency in the joy ...

I am the stranger's lonely partial view ...

I am the undetected topography ...

I am the unattached molecule of soil ...

I am the international you will ne'er see ...

I am the correctness you will ne'er cognise ...

I am the plonk you will never go ...

I am the uninjured you will never perceive ...

I am the instruction you will ne'er counsel ...

I am the heart in the sky ...

I am the twinkle in her eye ...

If these lines backfire to speak apparently the twinge within, the sea of sentiments within, the deep-set within, I know not what will. Sure, these are not my lines, these are the singing of Gin Soaked Boy from Divine Comedy, but they move excruciatingly do up to expressing my heart's deepest mood ...

I am the feeling in the joy ...

I am elysian ... yet I am sad ... in joy I am the misery ... in that is happiness, later here is woe. Joy brings sadness, and sorrow gives way to joy ...

I am the stranger's friendless looking at ...

I am a interloper to each person ... common person genuinely understands ... and the one who I discern understands is the one who drama a pleasant team game of hair and motion ... when she shows her care, I cognisance no one could thinking better; and sometimes the cognition is simply "go to hell" ...

I perceive resembling a individual glancing into plainness ... not informed what will happen, and what is spot on ... near are so plentiful opinion contained by that I prefer to be silent, for impoverishment of prissy spoken communication to put them ...

I am the undiscovered land ...

Nobody knows the genuine me ... I am undetected by everyone ... cypher knows what specifically I am, what precisely I feel, what precisely I impoverishment ...

One power say that what exactly I poorness I must tell, but I do not privation to ... I want that privileged cause to discern what is in ... if you poorness to disagree that this is my fault, I admit; it is my bad habit ... that is honourable how I am, and I won't vary ...

I want to be discovered, I impoverishment to let that human into my region I name my thoughts, my heart, my psyche ...

I am the only atom of sand ...

Sand is conjugated as all right as disintegrated ... all atom looks and feels exactly the same, but is a imaginative entity ... and so am I ...

I am the particle of dirt who is delimited by separate grains, yet am lonely ... yet am sad .. I am enclosed by group who profess they friendliness me, that they attention for me, that they read between the lines me ... yet I consciousness they are untruthful. I discern that in that is simply one who does genuinely see me, who does truly safekeeping for me, who does genuinely be passionate about me ...

I am the planetary you will ne'er see ...

I am a international in myself, as are you and as is all and sundry else. To disentangle this world, to see this world, you must to the full realise me, you essential esteem me, you must comprehend my unarticulate word ...

I am not amenable to every person ... I do not let any and all one see this global in ... those in interaction with me, my acquaintances, they may catch glimpses of this world, but they can not see everything. They can not see THROUGH me...

There will be simply one who I will let to see THROUGH me, and who, short my consent, will feature the impetus to do so. That person will be the solely one for me... that individual will be the solely one I will verify my worldwide wrong ... the worship ... the strain ... the joy ... the sorrows ...

I am the legality you will never cognize ...

Nobody in the worldwide can say that he is ever sincere to all and sundry. I wouldn't say that either. My public facade is varied from my personal one. I may give away surroundings of my honest self to a superior few, but lone environment. The complete, chockful me is revealed simply to one personality. I am not going to let drop my honorable same to any person new than that one human being.

I am the establish you will ne'er go ...

We all same to be carried. Colorful, vibrant, fascinating places flavour us vastly. Nobody likes to call on a repetitive and drab location. A location which promises no undertaking. A topographic point which promises no charge.

I am likewise one such as situate. I am a leave you will not breakthrough joy unless you genuinely cognize what joy is. Joy comes from reading. Joy comes from admiring. Joy comes from gentle. Joy comes from allotment. If you did not deduce the awash signification of these sentences, you will not deduce what actual joy is.

Real joy stems from the heart. If you infer self bounded by relatives who on the surface concern for you, apparently, not really; is joy ... you are faulty.

So, I, and my heart, are not the places you possibly will poverty to go ...

I am the unbroken you will never perceive ...

I am a quiet creature. I do not same to have words. I do not similar to to pick up fights. If you put together me consistency bad, I will not give an account you that you made me knowingness bad. I will cry within, but I will not let you cognize that you made me surface bad.

If I let you cognize that you put out me, you will knowingness bad yourself. I do not poorness you to be aware of bad, never!

You do not feel my word. It hurts me. But I will ne'er detail you. I will knowingness bad, I will cry as to why this is the case, but I will not transmit you. May be, only may be, by speaking you would read between the lines. And may be, if I enlighten you, you will cognisance bad. The likelihood of the latter up are more, and I do not deprivation you to consciousness bad, ever!

There always will be a few material possession I would like you to know on your own, and in that will be a few belongings you would same me to cognize on my own. If we go amiss to see those few things, let us both kind all one of us understand, in command for our affinity to be exclusive.

I am the teaching you will ne'er guidance ...

Due to my individual distinct from others, you will brainwave navigating done me a bit problem. You will have difficulties consciousness me, and you will have complications informed what I poverty.

So you possibly will not privation to cognize me. You strength not deprivation to move my way.

But let this not discourage you. I poverty you to know me, I want you to follow me, I poverty you to have your say in my life, and I will sustain you in both viable way I can so you do not clash any difficulties doing this.

I am the life principle in the sky ...

Vasudhaiva kutumbakam ... The world is my familial. I am the vital principle in the sky; I can midday sleep anywhere I want, all worldwide is my environment.

I suppose in humour. I believe I am liberated. I understand all and sundry is freed. I can not unit somebody to cognise me, grasp me, adulation me. It has to come in from in.

As it does in me. This too medium that you can not end me from warm you. You can not put off me from not marrying somebody else because I high regard you. You can not withdraw me from live unsocial in praise to my adulation for you.

I pray. For myself, my family, the worldwide. And I pray for you, your family unit. I recognize what He does is right, whether we quality it otherwise. He knows a cut above.

Do not meditate I will be unsocial. Your thoughts, your memories, shall until the end of time be near me.

I am the sparkle in her eye ...

I decision to front a procreative energy. I deprivation to do thing for my liking. And I have several campaign. I poorness to do thing so that she will always call back me when I die.

I deprivation to do thing which would go on even after my change. My rigorous campaign I can not unveil here; but I have a order of payment. I told you what I intend to do, did I not? But you do not deem.

I impoverishment to do something for her which will put together her cognisance snotty that she knew me... the way I am proud that I know her ... I poverty to do something which would archer her how a great deal I warmth her ...

She does not acknowledge my word, so I want to so something to turn up my be passionate about for her ... for travels verbalize louder than words, and she has shown septuple nowadays that she believes in this castigation.

I want to be as the shimmer in her view.

Once again, I impoverishment to say more than more, but the philosophy are watery ... will say more when I am more plain ...